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a little maelstrom

not to be the epitome of negativity, but i knew today was going to be shitty- and that’s exactly how it turned out. ¬†the weather was disgusting this morning- and when i say that, i mean it. ¬†sleet, snow, freezing rain, and hail all tormented me on my walk to school, which took way too long + i almost got hit by two cars on the way up congress street, and i guess you could easily deduce that put me in a foul mood for the remainder of the day. ¬†i’d assume the most obvious reason why my day was bad was because i had to go back to school- and it’s not that i dislike school, in fact, it’s exactly the opposite. ¬†i love school- i just know that i’m sleep deprived, i’m on the cusp of getting sick once again, and i have a lot to do this week. ¬†transitioning back to a normal “work” week has never been my forte, unless you count holiday break this past year, because that got old fast. ¬†not to mention, mondays are the worst days in my week because i don’t have a free period and i stay after school until five to do mentoring.

i don’t feel like delving into why i’m particularly annoyed, and i definitely don’t want to say anything that may reveal the identities of those who annoy me, but for the most part, i’m just annoyed with flat out contradictions- regardless of the intent.

i think tonight is going to consist solely of homework, a bath, some dinner, and bed, because that’s the sort of mood i’m currently in.

e

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i’m a new soul

this winter is getting more difficult to survive for reasons out of my control. ¬†first and foremost, i absolutely despise the cold temperatures, and they always just effect me negatively because i want to find a little corner and huddle there with about a billion blankets on top of me. ¬†the second reason has to do with the cold temperatures- once february hits, it seems like the snow is gone, and instead we’re plagued with ice. ¬†i can’t tell you how much i hate ice. ¬†for one, it’s so dangerous, and also it’s just not user friendly. ¬†i always get this anxious pit in my stomach when i’m walking on ice, and i just don’t like it. ¬†but i don’t want to bore you with why i’m having a difficult time this winter, instead i’d rather tell ¬†you what i’m doing to busy myself in this lonely period of the year.

break starts friday at 2pm, thankfully. ¬†it’s not so much that i need it like i need christmas break, but instead, it’s just some time to actually go do stuff that i need to do, and that i’m genuinely excited about. ¬†first and foremost, there’s a food/fashion blogger happy hour at my place of work, and i’m very excited to meet with a few folks- kate from the blueberry files, and so on, and immediately after that, i think i’m going to spend some quality time with samuel, because i won’t see him for a good amount of time from saturday onward. ¬†then the weekend boasts a dinner with marlowe at the noodle bar, working both brunches, and driving down to bos late sunday so i can wake up early to leave the country.

don’t worry, i seriously haven’t been keeping anything too big from you guys- it’s not like i’m leaving for turkey or something crazy like that. ¬†just a friendly visit to our northern neighbor- canada. ¬†no, it’s not going to be a drinking fest, but rather a visit at two possible schools i’m looking at, and a reunion with a pretty cool friend. ¬† i’ll be in montreal for 3 days, then i’ll stay another night in boston to see two of my aunts for dinner, and also to crash so i don’t have to get home ridiculously late wednesday night. ¬†the rest of the week is really unclear, because i’m left with four days to do more than i think is possible to squeeze into 96 hours. ¬†sugarloaf, bela dear, have a jersey shore party, spend some quality time with A & samuel, work two+ shifts, oh, and sleep? maybe it’s all possible, but then again, i could just have a case of being unrealistic.

in other news, restaurant week is rapidly approaching- that’s right, it’s my favorite time of year again. ¬†i have four reservations thus far, and the list can only keep growing if you look at it from my view. ¬†first is my maiden voyage to bresca (can’t say that i’ve ever been more excited about a restaurant visit), next comes a trip to district with mere, and then a trip to vignola with nellie, and finally the eve of my SATs boasts a wonderful meal at bar lola with mr. I. ¬†i think i’ll also be visiting hugo’s on a tuesday for their half of blind tasting menu, and then of course one night i’ll go somewhere with sam, maybe local or sonny’s. so i guess you can say that i’m consciously trying to make things look on the bright side, and it’s working for the most part. ¬†primarily what kills me is the cold wind when i walk outside. ¬†that makes me forget what i have to look forward to and instead makes me spiteful. ¬†don’t worry, i’m trying to work on it though.

-enfin

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snowflakes

6:42am, discovered that classes were cancelled.  went back to bed.  10:05am, hit snooze, went back to bed.  11:18am, trout stepped on my stomach, awoke to a whiteout preventing a good gauge of the effects of the storm on my end.  laid in bed, morose, wistful, until midday when a returned from a short trek to the gym.

throbbing headaches, lacking motivation, attempting to get moving six hours too late.  two days left of the week- thank goodness for weekends.  home interview tomorrow evening, then a stitch and bitch in so. po. with a few fellow yogis.  friday renders two quizzes- latin & english, a late night trip to local 188, and proper rest.  as the weekend crawls forward, i have worthwhile plans.  a good bye dinner for meg on saturday evening, tea & scones on sunday with cora, and then dinner plans with three lovely ladies later on that night.  monday= relaxation, homework, sleeping & cleaning.

reading, doing homework, ichat dates, and long bath. + smiles tomorrow.

enfinlove

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let’s play catch-up

hi, how are you? i’m good thanks for asking.¬† and just in case you forgot, i’m enfin and this is my blog which has been neglected for the past month and a half or so.¬† i must apologize on many different levels, but as i mentioned in the recent past, my life has taken a turn that i did not expect.¬† i don’t mean that in a negative scary sense, in fact it’s a really good change- much needed, and much appreciated.¬† i contemplated ending this blog- taking an extended hiatus if you will, and it seems as if i did- but that’s only because my precious laptop broke in the midst of exams, and also because the holidays came and went, and then just this past week i celebrated my birthday.¬† classes are in full swing again, i’ve made it my resolution to stop procrastinating- to get things done on time, to be efficient, to be productive, the be the student i’ve always been.¬† a side note- my other resolution is making blogging the most regular of duties.¬† from santa i received a nikon dx 3000, which is making the photography aspect much easier on the eyes.¬† so expect regular posts once i get my new macbook air (in three-four days).

i miss blogging more than you would assume.¬† i’ve been writing restaurant reviews, adapting recipes, and i have so much to share on vin et grub¬†it’s surprising- seeing as i usually have limited material.¬† i miss having an outlet to the outside world, one where i can say what i need to say, acquire knowledge that inspires me to take on new projects, and give me that extra little oomph that gets me through my days.

the other reason why i haven’t been blogging, besides exams, winter break, and a broken laptop is because i’m spending my time with cherished and loved ones (this is my way of saying that i met someone… and i now have a boyfraan, who i must add, is ridiculously spectacular and understands me better than most).¬† i have this life that i’ve cultivated, one that i’ve been yearning and one that i’ve finally received after seventeen years.¬† relationships in my family are the best they’ve been in a long time, and it’s not everyday (although for the past two and half months it has been) that i wake up smiling and i fall asleep smiling.

i was really pleased this past birthday- entering my seventeenth year to receive twenty friends at a semi-surprise party.¬† as a capricorn, i need to be involved in everything, i hate outright surprises, and i like to lead, so it’s only customary for me to have had part in planning my own party.¬† but it was the best time i’ve ever had on a birthday.¬† a reservation for 21 at local 188, paella, quail eggs, steak tartare, chocolate chocolate cupcakes, goat cheese salads, scallops, braised short ribs, culinary feats conquered.¬† the best company i’ve ever had, and just all around smiles and good vibes.¬† i spent last evening in boston, where we had a reservation at petit robert bistro, and enjoyed good conversation, culinary excellency, and family time.¬† i’m headed home to portland today to spend time with my peach, and then i guess i’ll sleep a good sleep all to enter another week at the flete.¬† but i must say, this is the absolute happiest i’ve been in the past two years, and i’m just in this euphoria- this absolute bliss where everything is fine and dandy, where i’m looking forward to the next day just as much as i’m enjoying the moment.

tell me how you’ve been! tell me about your resolutions, your holidays, your fresh start to 2011.¬† i want to hear it all.

enfinlove

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steezy

kudos and utmost respect.

happy december. ¬†i’ll be MIA, just to warn you. ¬†there’s so much going on, exams are right around the corner, i need to take a last minute trip down to cambridge to pick up a few gifts, and i’m taking all the extra shifts at work that i can get. ¬†so much food to create as well. ¬†this is a bit late, but happy hanukkah.

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