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a little maelstrom

not to be the epitome of negativity, but i knew today was going to be shitty- and that’s exactly how it turned out. ¬†the weather was disgusting this morning- and when i say that, i mean it. ¬†sleet, snow, freezing rain, and hail all tormented me on my walk to school, which took way too long + i almost got hit by two cars on the way up congress street, and i guess you could easily deduce that put me in a foul mood for the remainder of the day. ¬†i’d assume the most obvious reason why my day was bad was because i had to go back to school- and it’s not that i dislike school, in fact, it’s exactly the opposite. ¬†i love school- i just know that i’m sleep deprived, i’m on the cusp of getting sick once again, and i have a lot to do this week. ¬†transitioning back to a normal “work” week has never been my forte, unless you count holiday break this past year, because that got old fast. ¬†not to mention, mondays are the worst days in my week because i don’t have a free period and i stay after school until five to do mentoring.

i don’t feel like delving into why i’m particularly annoyed, and i definitely don’t want to say anything that may reveal the identities of those who annoy me, but for the most part, i’m just annoyed with flat out contradictions- regardless of the intent.

i think tonight is going to consist solely of homework, a bath, some dinner, and bed, because that’s the sort of mood i’m currently in.

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i’m a new soul

this winter is getting more difficult to survive for reasons out of my control. ¬†first and foremost, i absolutely despise the cold temperatures, and they always just effect me negatively because i want to find a little corner and huddle there with about a billion blankets on top of me. ¬†the second reason has to do with the cold temperatures- once february hits, it seems like the snow is gone, and instead we’re plagued with ice. ¬†i can’t tell you how much i hate ice. ¬†for one, it’s so dangerous, and also it’s just not user friendly. ¬†i always get this anxious pit in my stomach when i’m walking on ice, and i just don’t like it. ¬†but i don’t want to bore you with why i’m having a difficult time this winter, instead i’d rather tell ¬†you what i’m doing to busy myself in this lonely period of the year.

break starts friday at 2pm, thankfully. ¬†it’s not so much that i need it like i need christmas break, but instead, it’s just some time to actually go do stuff that i need to do, and that i’m genuinely excited about. ¬†first and foremost, there’s a food/fashion blogger happy hour at my place of work, and i’m very excited to meet with a few folks- kate from the blueberry files, and so on, and immediately after that, i think i’m going to spend some quality time with samuel, because i won’t see him for a good amount of time from saturday onward. ¬†then the weekend boasts a dinner with marlowe at the noodle bar, working both brunches, and driving down to bos late sunday so i can wake up early to leave the country.

don’t worry, i seriously haven’t been keeping anything too big from you guys- it’s not like i’m leaving for turkey or something crazy like that. ¬†just a friendly visit to our northern neighbor- canada. ¬†no, it’s not going to be a drinking fest, but rather a visit at two possible schools i’m looking at, and a reunion with a pretty cool friend. ¬† i’ll be in montreal for 3 days, then i’ll stay another night in boston to see two of my aunts for dinner, and also to crash so i don’t have to get home ridiculously late wednesday night. ¬†the rest of the week is really unclear, because i’m left with four days to do more than i think is possible to squeeze into 96 hours. ¬†sugarloaf, bela dear, have a jersey shore party, spend some quality time with A & samuel, work two+ shifts, oh, and sleep? maybe it’s all possible, but then again, i could just have a case of being unrealistic.

in other news, restaurant week is rapidly approaching- that’s right, it’s my favorite time of year again. ¬†i have four reservations thus far, and the list can only keep growing if you look at it from my view. ¬†first is my maiden voyage to bresca (can’t say that i’ve ever been more excited about a restaurant visit), next comes a trip to district with mere, and then a trip to vignola with nellie, and finally the eve of my SATs boasts a wonderful meal at bar lola with mr. I. ¬†i think i’ll also be visiting hugo’s on a tuesday for their half of blind tasting menu, and then of course one night i’ll go somewhere with sam, maybe local or sonny’s. so i guess you can say that i’m consciously trying to make things look on the bright side, and it’s working for the most part. ¬†primarily what kills me is the cold wind when i walk outside. ¬†that makes me forget what i have to look forward to and instead makes me spiteful. ¬†don’t worry, i’m trying to work on it though.

-enfin

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oceanic adventure

running off to mount desert island for the last week of august to camp and stay in the hostel with a.  hikes, evening swims, this way cafe, sails, and sleepin in the great outdoors.  my kinda living.

sooo hooot

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sailed to cliff island today, and rode around on the back of a pickup truck, almost fell out, ate some scrumped raspberries, jumped off the ferry dock, and scraped my knee up real bad and rad. sunburned and possibly dead. so tired. falling asleep now.¬† could use a real snooze. tomorrow 4 hour boat ride. then thursday and friday scuba diving.¬† guess what the weekend brings? a campout on long island with a rather lovely group of people, and then i’m gone… starting monday for 13 days to walpole, bristol, pemaquid, and stonington.¬† oh shnap.

enfin love.

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believe it or not,

it’s been a crazy start to summer thus far.¬† i took a short hiatus, because i was simply enjoying life sans a worry to enter the blogosphere.¬† last year, around this time, portland was plagued with a permanent rain cloud, but needless to say, the weather currently has been more than i could have asked for.¬† 80s every day, sunny, breezy, and wunderbar.¬† in addition to the fantastic weather, you could say that i’ve had a pretty stacked past week and a half.¬† besides going to d.c. and meeting some really awesome people, i also made a bit of cash, saw Ted Leo & the Rx at SPACE, had a picnic on the west end, ate tortellini pizza from enzo’s on the eastern prom underneath the delicious rays of the sun with Izac, saw KARATE kid, and then, of course, took a beach vacation with annie- complete with milanos and strawberry pie, and sunbeams.¬† not to mention, i’ve been jammin’ to Drake…yes, uncharacteristic of me, but his tunes are making me quite cheery.¬† i’ve got to buy some film, save some cash, work on my beverage regimine, cook some grub, and sleep.¬† tomorrow, therapy, working, farmer’s mkt, clothing swap. ridiculously busy, but just the way i need it.¬† i’m tryin’ to capture summer, but i’m lacking the funds to purchse batteries.¬† splurged a healthy half of a typical day at work’s income on RUSK hair product…. what else will i make a foolish decision about.

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as if i should be leaving for the NO, i’ve decided i’d rather make the trip come autumn so i could miss some class and not have to worry about payin’ for my ticket.¬† on a darker note, i’d like to discuss something quite tragic.

thursday evening, garrett cormier, a 16 year old boy in my graduating class, died in falmouth.¬† i didn’t know garrett too well, in fact, it’s quite possible him and i never exchanged any words, but his death has effected me greatly.¬† he was the first kid who has passed away in my class, and it was yet another wake up call that life is way too short.¬† i feel so much sorrow for his family, and my heart goes out to them.¬† he didn’t deserve to die young, he was honestly, a rather good person, and extremely loyal from hearsay.¬† there’s not much i can do, but reflect.¬† it’s actually coming up on the year anniversary of my father’s death- next monday.¬† i’m a bit sad, and i’ve cried a good amount the past few weeks.¬† i don’t think i want to understand death, but the entire idea of it, is really terrifying and¬†i dislike it so much- but i do accept it.¬† there’s no hiding from death’s dark hand.¬† it’s part of life, and everyone ends up in the same place.¬†my friend made a wonderful point about reincarnation, which was, that really is the optimistic way to look at what comes after death.¬† i think that whatever you believe in is what happens to you after you pass… so i suppose i need to find a faith of some sort.¬† a new start, a new me, a new life.

enfinoui

i’m ridin’ through the city with my high beams on- can ya see me, can ya see me, get yo’ visine on.

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wild goose chase

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so oh ho. i feel as though i’ve started a trend… staying up late, waking up early, rinse repeat, xyz. anyway, today, tuesday, rainy. tomorrow or is it today? wednesday, clearing, confusing. the show was absolutely lovely. i realized i should have taken a few pictures with my digital camera, but i took a good amount on my Ricoh, so when i finish this roll of film (colour…ick) i will send ’em out, and scan ’em up so you can see the beautiful people of dark dark dark in EAST portland. but it was a good show, besides the transportation getting to SPACE (seeing as it was torrential downpours and riotous winds). bright bright bright is better than alright, although i do have to admit, Snow Magic is one of my favorite records (maybe of all time).¬† besides the show, i bought film, and a lot of coffee, and i considered buying batteries (but i didn’t) and i almost finished a painting.¬† the rain tires me out, even if i lay in bed all day.¬† i guess i’m looking forward to next saturday and then april 24th. and also any day i can sleep in, because i’m lacking on that front right now.

i know this will make many of you sad, but can we just hope that it rains all day so i don’t have to go practice? i’d rather come home, do a bit of work, cook a lemon basil cake, and go to bed. cross yer fingers.

yesterday was: nice altogether because of dark x3, cafe noir, pinot noir, messy hair, silence gnawing at my head, x’s, and hugs from trout.

enfinlove

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we will hustle hustle hustle to be free

I awoke with the dreaded thought that it was 3 o’clock in the afternoon, but it wasn’t! ’twas only noon, so i was a bit happier than i initially thought.¬† i watched a bit of stupid cable, and then i headed to arabica for toast and cafe noir and some camraderie with anna.¬† while there i eavesdropped and heard about this wonderful little yardsale that cap’in hanna was having! she’s a great tattooist and she is moving all the way to san fransisco! so i went up and i scored… i don’t even know how to put it any other way than that.¬† i got a very sweet vintage skirt, about eight lovely t-shirts, a cowboy shirt with plaid trim, a crocheted framed picture of dauchsands, and finally a spectacular framed poster of the exhibit FAMILY ALBUMS!¬†the thing that made everything so great was the price! i only spent ten dollars, and i don’t think i will have the need to buy shirts for quite sometime! yay! over time pictures will pop up, but right now i’m really lazy and don’t feel like taking a picture of everything i got.

when i got home i was locked out, so i sat in the hallway and had to listen to my neighbor’s atrocious soundtrack of buck cherry and killa 80s bands.¬† i don’t know how long i sat on the floor for, and in addition to my waiting, i had no phone, ipod, and obviously no key.¬† pure torture, but sheer amusement.¬† when i finally got let in, i busied myself with laundry and sunday chores, and then finally got to cook! i made gnocchi (homemade) with brown butter kale sage sauce with white wine. i don’t know what to call the sauce because all the ingredients are equally delicious! i also made chocolate ice cream sandwiches with the popovers and chocolate sauce.¬† i’m planning on posting the recipes tomorrow! i also did about two hours of biology homework, and i skipped studying for history and studying the west nile virus.¬† i hate third quarter more than anything in the entire world. well…not really.¬† although this week i think i get out early wednesday, thursday, and friday! that means either i get to work longer (equals more cash earned) or i get to take afternoon naps which are always so helpful!

how was your sunday? for some reasons i just love sundays…perhaps because they are so banasuic, but also because they are comforting.

i am feeling: tired and tummy aches, not ready for the rain or for forty degree weather, i hate mondays i hate mondays!, curiousity kills de cats….i want to have a haus party with dinner and white wine!

enfinlove.
ps: i kinda want to make a blackberry plum tart! this week i’m super inspired to cook.¬† tomorrow i’m making a radish cucumber vietnamese salad with white rice and miso soup, wednesday i’m making cauliflower and kale soup, and thursday i was thinking honey dijon chicken with beets and sauteed mushrooms! coookity cookity cook! i wish i had someone to cook for.

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