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TROUBLE COMES KNOCKING

tomorrow! so excited.  can’t wait to be in good company and hear some of my favorite tunes at my favorite venue.  it’s been a while since i’ve done anything of the sort, so why not make an appearance in town when i have the opportunity? a was delayed, and she got to eat some of my raspberry plum pear pie, watch 8 mile with me, and eat this:

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believe it or not,

it’s been a crazy start to summer thus far.  i took a short hiatus, because i was simply enjoying life sans a worry to enter the blogosphere.  last year, around this time, portland was plagued with a permanent rain cloud, but needless to say, the weather currently has been more than i could have asked for.  80s every day, sunny, breezy, and wunderbar.  in addition to the fantastic weather, you could say that i’ve had a pretty stacked past week and a half.  besides going to d.c. and meeting some really awesome people, i also made a bit of cash, saw Ted Leo & the Rx at SPACE, had a picnic on the west end, ate tortellini pizza from enzo’s on the eastern prom underneath the delicious rays of the sun with Izac, saw KARATE kid, and then, of course, took a beach vacation with annie- complete with milanos and strawberry pie, and sunbeams.  not to mention, i’ve been jammin’ to Drake…yes, uncharacteristic of me, but his tunes are making me quite cheery.  i’ve got to buy some film, save some cash, work on my beverage regimine, cook some grub, and sleep.  tomorrow, therapy, working, farmer’s mkt, clothing swap. ridiculously busy, but just the way i need it.  i’m tryin’ to capture summer, but i’m lacking the funds to purchse batteries.  splurged a healthy half of a typical day at work’s income on RUSK hair product…. what else will i make a foolish decision about.

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as if i should be leaving for the NO, i’ve decided i’d rather make the trip come autumn so i could miss some class and not have to worry about payin’ for my ticket.  on a darker note, i’d like to discuss something quite tragic.

thursday evening, garrett cormier, a 16 year old boy in my graduating class, died in falmouth.  i didn’t know garrett too well, in fact, it’s quite possible him and i never exchanged any words, but his death has effected me greatly.  he was the first kid who has passed away in my class, and it was yet another wake up call that life is way too short.  i feel so much sorrow for his family, and my heart goes out to them.  he didn’t deserve to die young, he was honestly, a rather good person, and extremely loyal from hearsay.  there’s not much i can do, but reflect.  it’s actually coming up on the year anniversary of my father’s death- next monday.  i’m a bit sad, and i’ve cried a good amount the past few weeks.  i don’t think i want to understand death, but the entire idea of it, is really terrifying and i dislike it so much- but i do accept it.  there’s no hiding from death’s dark hand.  it’s part of life, and everyone ends up in the same place. my friend made a wonderful point about reincarnation, which was, that really is the optimistic way to look at what comes after death.  i think that whatever you believe in is what happens to you after you pass… so i suppose i need to find a faith of some sort.  a new start, a new me, a new life.

enfinoui

i’m ridin’ through the city with my high beams on- can ya see me, can ya see me, get yo’ visine on.

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today has been absolutely wonderful.  regardless of how early i awoke, i’ve had the most pleasant day.  it started with strawberry picking in scarborough- and these berries were so delicious and juicy and mouth watering, it made me want to pick like 80 pints. i got sunkissed and freckled and then i walked up the east end, bought some iced coffee with soy supp, and then began work.  now i’m headed to SPACE to see Ted Leo & The Rx.  So frikin excited.  ecstacy excited.  tomorrow brings adventures with mr sean, and i hope to buy a new nose ring & get it changed- although i’m dreading the pain.  monday i’m with miss lily and hopefully we’ll head to the beach.  on tuesday, miss annie, who i haven’t seen in ages, a trip to salvie’s and higgins is truly in order. and finally, wednesday, miss bela, how i’ve missed the darling.  clothing swap and all that jazz.  i’m planning on getting out of maine on the 29th or 30th, and catchin’ a flight to MSY.  tomorrow is daughter’s day, i’ll be begging for a roundtrip ticket down south, and on thursday, miss m will be back from EUROPE.  it’s almost been an entire year since my father passed away, and i’m feeling it.  i don’t know what to expect on the 28th, but i know that he wouldn’t want me to be sad. his life was short- and as they say, only the good die young.  i’ve been overly emotional the past week- not to mention, girly. i’m not taking to heart my horoscopes, because at this point in time, i don’t know if i trust them.  to do.

-buy b&w film
-buy color film
– short shorts & bathing suit
-beach days
-strawberry picking
-iced coffee
-the eNOh
-ART WALKin
-jazz@loc.
-finish life of pi
-yard saling
-baking
-dinner party
-get dolled up
-grow my hair out
-be realistic
-accept grief
-be pleasant
-take photos
-finish a story
-write some poetry
-go swimming
-see more fireflies
-be sociable
-change nose ring (OUCH)

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howlin’ for you

chaos has been unleashed if you want to know my honest opinion.  in addition to dealing with chaos head on, i am currently plagued with an ailment and can’t stop coughing or being the one who sniffles opposed to blows their nose. at this point, i’m basically over eveything i had my hopes up for, for an obvious reason which is that i could just care less. but now that i say that in all honesty, it’s bound to change at some point or another.

SPACE was so spectacular last night- the middle east (pictured above) and laura marling were both really wonderful, not to mention a most welcomed surprise from Mr. I.  i got home late, and i passed out needless to say. being as fatigued as i happened to be meant that i was obviously going to oversleep, so here i am, sitting in bio, with last night’s cat eyes fading about my eyes, hair flat and rather bed-head like, and a pair of pencil jeans with a grey t-shirt. i ran to make it in on time. you’d think it was the beginning of the year seeing how i seem to be falling into my old habits.  spring fever has officially taken control & all i want is to be celebrating summer with those who i truly care for.

enfin’s spent a grand amount of time with bela dearest & even G! it’s been much needed- girl time.  i just have to get through seven more days and i will be all set to finish the school year (even though our end date is 6.11) projects galore, and i guess i’m not putting 100% into them, but i don’t think anyone is.

the one thing i need most at this moment is a big cup of arabica’s french roast & something savory.  soon enough. this day needs to get over sooner rather than later (even though that means i have to produce 40+ note cards & a short story about the 4th dimension. i feel wonderful in regards to those items on my to-do list)

if i were you i’d listen to the middle east.

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overwhelm

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the past few days have been quite interesting… if i am being entirely honest. i don’t feel like going into details, so i’ll sort of leave it at that.  tonight i went to space and saw the low anthem and brown bird, and cried because timber timbre wasn’t there, so i couldn’t hear:

but que sera, sera. i’ve been busy with tennis, research papers, tea making, cake baking, and taking rolls of film here in portland. i’m tired to be entirely honest, but the busiest breaks are always the best in my mind. i saw beautiful bela last evening, and that was lavish. tomorrow or today, or whatever it is exactly, i have plans to go to local for brunch and then to the bike swap and then out to borders to get a few must have books that are unable to be found at YES or Cunningham.  currently listening to bob dylan on vinyl… while pondering whether or not i said the right thing. oh too bad. honesty equals prosperity, yeah? i sure hope so.

enfinoui

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pynchon


lady stole my dream outfit.

do you ever get bothered by something you probably shouldn’t be bothered by? for example, this is completely hypothetical mind you, yer best friend seems to have this deep intense enjoyment of pretending to be you and pretending to live yer life? well, i get bothered by things like that quite easily. and i just did.

i’m reading gravity’s rainbow by pynchon. it’s quite good thus far, and i’m trying to savour it rather than eat right through it. last evening was so boring. i should have gone to coyle street or to space even though that’s where the hipsters go.  deertick played at space, and story played at coyle street. its unfortunate that i was too lazy to hop on ethel and ride to one of those venues. lately i’ve been feeling like i’m sans friends, which is kind of, in an odd way, refreshing. i don’t have any obligation to turn on my phone, nor do i have any obligation to log on to the f-word (facebook).  canada is in five days, which makes me pretty damn excited. other than that, my week promises to be busy. i don’t exactly want to go play tennis, but i know that i have to thus I must.  i really hate people who try to be someone they’re not.  in addition to that, i hate friends who go through other friends to get what they want and pretend they’re someone they’re not. someone who has observed the same type of behavior told me not to mind it, saying that it was a form of flattery. bullshit. i don’t care about flattery, i never have. all i know right now is that i’m in for a long day. whether or not that’s a bueno thing… we’ll see in 12 hours.  which in reality is not a long time. time. another thing i’d love to speak about. we’re racing against time, whether we define time as the moments that have passed, or the moments until the end, everyone, in one way or another, is racing against time. i wish we could just forget it, seeing as a million years ago it didn’t exist. stupid marilyn kept me up all evening, with her legs swinging and hands ticking. mocking my very existence in a way.  just to stay organized, because i check this more than i check my calender, below i’m listing my next month, so feel free to bypass it. thanks.

april 9th, 10th, 11th: quebec
april 14th through the 18th: north carolina
april 18th through the 20th: cambridge/boston
april 23rd: 70s dance party at SPACE
april 24th: low anthem & timber timbre at SPACE
may 4th: vinyl fair at Port City Music Hall

i’m ready for the highlights, i don’t know about the lowlights.

n’ameen.
oh and a mixed tape will appear shortly, within the next three days.

enfinoui (no love today)

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