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it’s been a crazy start to summer thus far.Β  i took a short hiatus, because i was simply enjoying life sans a worry to enter the blogosphere.Β  last year, around this time, portland was plagued with a permanent rain cloud, but needless to say, the weather currently has been more than i could have asked for.Β  80s every day, sunny, breezy, and wunderbar.Β  in addition to the fantastic weather, you could say that i’ve had a pretty stacked past week and a half.Β  besides going to d.c. and meeting some really awesome people, i also made a bit of cash, saw Ted Leo & the Rx at SPACE, had a picnic on the west end, ate tortellini pizza from enzo’s on the eastern prom underneath the delicious rays of the sun with Izac, saw KARATE kid, and then, of course, took a beach vacation with annie- complete with milanos and strawberry pie, and sunbeams.Β  not to mention, i’ve been jammin’ to Drake…yes, uncharacteristic of me, but his tunes are making me quite cheery.Β  i’ve got to buy some film, save some cash, work on my beverage regimine, cook some grub, and sleep.Β  tomorrow, therapy, working, farmer’s mkt, clothing swap. ridiculously busy, but just the way i need it.Β  i’m tryin’ to capture summer, but i’m lacking the funds to purchse batteries.Β  splurged a healthy half of a typical day at work’s income on RUSK hair product…. what else will i make a foolish decision about.

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as if i should be leaving for the NO, i’ve decided i’d rather make the trip come autumn so i could miss some class and not have to worry about payin’ for my ticket.Β  on a darker note, i’d like to discuss something quite tragic.

thursday evening, garrett cormier, a 16 year old boy in my graduating class, died in falmouth.Β  i didn’t know garrett too well, in fact, it’s quite possible him and i never exchanged any words, but his death has effected me greatly.Β  he was the first kid who has passed away in my class, and it was yet another wake up call that life is way too short.Β  i feel so much sorrow for his family, and my heart goes out to them.Β  he didn’t deserve to die young, he was honestly, a rather good person, and extremely loyal from hearsay.Β  there’s not much i can do, but reflect.Β  it’s actually coming up on the year anniversary of my father’s death- next monday.Β  i’m a bit sad, and i’ve cried a good amount the past few weeks.Β  i don’t think i want to understand death, but the entire idea of it, is really terrifying andΒ i dislike it so much- but i do accept it.Β  there’s no hiding from death’s dark hand.Β  it’s part of life, and everyone ends up in the same place.Β my friend made a wonderful point about reincarnation, which was, that really is the optimistic way to look at what comes after death.Β  i think that whatever you believe in is what happens to you after you pass… so i suppose i need to find a faith of some sort.Β  a new start, a new me, a new life.

enfinoui

i’m ridin’ through the city with my high beams on- can ya see me, can ya see me, get yo’ visine on.

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pynchon


lady stole my dream outfit.

do you ever get bothered by something you probably shouldn’t be bothered by? for example, this is completely hypothetical mind you, yer best friend seems to have this deep intense enjoyment of pretending to be you and pretending to live yer life? well, i get bothered by things like that quite easily. and i just did.

i’m reading gravity’s rainbow by pynchon. it’s quite good thus far, and i’m trying to savour it rather than eat right through it. last evening was so boring. i should have gone to coyle street or to space even though that’s where the hipsters go.Β  deertick played at space, and story played at coyle street. its unfortunate that i was too lazy to hop on ethel and ride to one of those venues. lately i’ve been feeling like i’m sans friends, which is kind of, in an odd way, refreshing. i don’t have any obligation to turn on my phone, nor do i have any obligation to log on to the f-word (facebook).Β  canada is in five days, which makes me pretty damn excited. other than that, my week promises to be busy. i don’t exactly want to go play tennis, but i know that i have to thus I must.Β  i really hate people who try to be someone they’re not.Β  in addition to that, i hate friends who go through other friends to get what they want and pretend they’re someone they’re not. someone who has observed the same type of behavior told me not to mind it, saying that it was a form of flattery. bullshit. i don’t care about flattery, i never have. all i know right now is that i’m in for a long day. whether or not that’s a bueno thing… we’ll see in 12 hours.Β  which in reality is not a long time. time. another thing i’d love to speak about. we’re racing against time, whether we define time as the moments that have passed, or the moments until the end, everyone, in one way or another, is racing against time. i wish we could just forget it, seeing as a million years ago it didn’t exist. stupid marilyn kept me up all evening, with her legs swinging and hands ticking. mocking my very existence in a way.Β  just to stay organized, because i check this more than i check my calender, below i’m listing my next month, so feel free to bypass it. thanks.

april 9th, 10th, 11th: quebec
april 14th through the 18th: north carolina
april 18th through the 20th: cambridge/boston
april 23rd: 70s dance party at SPACE
april 24th: low anthem & timber timbre at SPACE
may 4th: vinyl fair at Port City Music Hall

i’m ready for the highlights, i don’t know about the lowlights.

n’ameen.
oh and a mixed tape will appear shortly, within the next three days.

enfinoui (no love today)

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