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rest in peace blank roll of film.  i don’t remember what images decorated your frames, but i’m sure i would have liked most of them.  here are some more film-scans.

we were on a boat, 30 miles out. le crew de sos.

ms shrada’s self-portrait.

independence day- anna joyce

pemaquid point- woke up to this for two weeks.

pre-max’s emergency room visit

along 101

this wins favorite photo of the past three months.

greek yoghurt gods smiled at me.

monhegan, maine.

i plan on sittin’ on the porch and sipping a corona with lime soon.  how soon, i do not know.  but plans usually formulate in my world.

tomorrow: relaxing, beach, falls, baseball game with family involved, beginning to pack shiet up for SKOR.  so enthused.  hope i don’t shoot blank rolls in korea. so excited, so excited. kim jong il better greet me with open arms, and a bottle of vin.


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exam day 1- down, conquered, never to be revived. besdies the test, i had quite the day. i spent an hour or two developing film, and then i came home & made a sandwich. journied to the market house and ran into a few people who mean a good amount to me. learned how to play chess, browsed salvies, met with M, stranded in a hailstorm thunder storm torrential down-pour, cleaned my heart out and made orange soy maple steak. i’m going to finish studying, take a bath, and go to bed. waking up early to cram, drink my almond milk, and get to class on time. summer is tangible.


postscriptum: after exams, going to the farmer’s market, with mere, looking for dc worthy clothing, and studying a bit. evening falls, scallops sear and the night never ends. early morning trip to the pier to watch the sunrise and eat mangoes and peaches.

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dearest capricorn


the end of this dark tunnel is nearing an end, only six days left, 4 of which are dedicated to exams.  its unfortunate, the importance of tests, because i am a rather wretched test-taker.  sure, i’m talented when writing papers, but studying, memorizing, and acing tests are not my forte.  thus far, the first week of june has been quite nice and carefree.  tuesday i worked pretty late in the darkroom with my evy – lew and then traveled home and made curry. wednesday, i went to the farmers mkt with mr i, where we splurged on free range pork, apples, ginger, dill plants, geraniums, zinnias, radishes, and apricots.  at the flat, i made our lunch, which was honey soy apple glazed pork, with roasted apples, radishes, potatoes in a delicate cream maple sauce. after mr i left, i went to therapy for the first time in over two months. it was worthwhile, but i felt as though all we talked about was exams and my upcoming summer. i shot a roll of tri-x yesterday as i walked around town too. after classes today, i stayed rather late- until 4:30 actually, so i could make a bit of progress on my water colour of the chateau, and then chat with my english professor about 100 years of solitude and our lives. i drew a bath filled with grace scented bubbles and home-grown basil leaves strewn about, which was followed by lemon infused water and my LUSH regiment.  i cleaned too, and ate a bit of greek yogurt and listened to cat stevens.

rain rain go away. i decorated my pretty pink princess chair. oh, i’m so ready for summer.


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i am so excited.  earlier this week- or perhaps last week, i was complaining about waiting for responses from 2 of 3 summer programs i applied to- the DC democracy in action, and the full scholarship south korea trip.  I got into both! I AM SO enthralled. it’s the first time in quite some time that i feel accomplished.  in addition to those two programs i’m also doing the sos program in july.  i’m leaving for korea in august for two weeks, and dc is sooner than later.  june 13th! oh man, i’m just so excited. i can’t even write, that’s how excited i am.  i will do a proper enfinoui post as the day ends. i’m rather tired and i’m trying to make my kraft mac and cheese and my brother is on his way over.


as a postscript: Let’s celebrate like there’s no tomorrow.


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sober nobody wants you




the magnetic fields need to chill out a while, so i can stop listening to them ‘cos they’re my good gods. like bob dylan, they’re narrating my life. miss bela stole me away today and we engaged in gluttony…. consuming fries, blood red orange sorbetto, chocolate cake with chili pepper and coffee frosting, and mac & cheese.  we did not have the munchies mind you.  and we’re planning on seeing prince of persia tomorrow and then off we shall go to a photo excursion.  then i’m celebrating the end of the year at local with a over dinner and drinks and dessert.  off i will head to washington dc on june 13th! i’m looking forward to it as well as sos and hopefully skor.  we’ll find out soon. saturday: expecting visitors! brother cole and made brandi are coming down to celebrate summer and tests and stressful weeks ahead.  sunday i believe i will be headed to a wonderful yard sale and then i’m working 5-11.  driving to higgins monday where we’ll eat strawberries, indulge in the sunshine, drink some wine, and let loose.  thank mon dieu for giving me the break i deserve.  i’m developing tuesday, from 2-5 and then off to local for jazz, wednesday i’m scouring the farmers market and going on a picnic with miss lily who i haven’t seen/heard from in ages! the end of the year is certainly shaping up, thus i can’t help be anything but jubilant! ooers, thank the heavens for summertime. (cue sublime and l’s).





postscript: trout smells like gym sneakers…. & i gotta get too drunk to dream cos dreamin only makes me blue.