happy september. can you feel that fall nip in the air? i’m not quite sure if i can, but hey… it’ll be here before any of us knows it. i know i’ve been MIA for a little while, and i have perfectly good excuses. they are as follows: i’m still experiencing my let down depression and that makes it difficult for me to write because i tend to turn the subject to the summertime and it makes me even more sad, i went on outdoor experience with my new school- we traveled to katahdin and went on a very long canoeing expedition, and since then i’ve been trying to catch up with sleeping and celebrating the final days of my best summer ever.
yesterday was full of great things- waking up late, get low, dinner at sonny’s (chicken enchilladas, cheeseburger, fried avacado, raspberry sangria sorbet, etc.), breaking down and buying lords of dogtown and roger dodger for under $10, pedis, and season 7 of entourage!! iced tea with A, and talking about everything and anything really helped put things in perspective for me.
it was a very weird transition from being in seoul to camping at katahdin. so loud and busy than became so quite and idle. mankind at its most innovative transformed into nature at it’s best. while i was laying in my tent on the first night, i realized that everything A had been saying about this all being relevant made sense. whereever you are in life, more life is going on around you. the more life you experience will mean different things for different people. as i’ve mentioned in previous posts, once things begin to change, they change drastically. i believe my fresh start at a new school is relevant and in cahoots with this past summer. i don’t know what to expect, i don’t know what’s around the bend- and to be honest, i don’t want to know until everything happens. life is what it is, and why not enjoy everything for once. continuing this trend, about it all being relevant, clearly the way life evolves is relevant too. i’ve been reading northanger abbey, and comparing the lifestyle back then to the lifestyle currently, is crazy. jane austen depcits a society in which it is mandatory for a woman and a man to find their star-crossed lover STAT. nowadays, while it’s still a focus, it’s not the only focus. it’s more a matter of personal preference.
things are just spinning around and around, and if i had to be honest, i would tell you everything keeps me up at night now.
the prospect of having a new unexpected friend excites me to the utmost extent- and i think that’s a muy bueno thing,
letting time carry on, trying to prevent this saddness from sinking further within my mind
cravings for outings and spottings have been increasing rapidly this lovely september morning-
i’m quite ready for routine i suppose… even though as i typed that my first thought was WHAT THE FUCK?
brunch at locs when A returns from yoga,
everything seems to have sorted themselves out for the time being. i guess you could say i’m in a very good position.
september monthly horoscope says:
More than any other time during the year, you are feeling most adventurous and willing to take a leap of faith. This is a cycle in which you seek a higher meaning to your life, and/or seek out new experiences that take you beyond the here and now, and beyond the mundane details of day-to-day life. Anything that broadens your experiences attracts now. A lack of superficiality finds you straight to the point, interested in the truth of things.