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blue skies are calling

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NO SCHOOL FOR 5 DAYS.  i’m in raptures to say the least, partly because i’ve had some vin blanc, and partly because i’m exhausted, but it’s so nice to know that i don’t have to worry about homework, about exams, about awkward situations, about waking up on time.  i can busy myself with trivial concerns like what should i pack for the holiday? when should i bake the cranberry currant tarte? what should my weekend consist of? the more trivial, the better i believe! i ought to express my sincere apologies for the lack of blogging on my end (but truth be told, i’m not too sorry).  lately my life has been consumed with occurrences, with new people, new places, new emotions.  i can’t say that i’d want it any other way, and to put it frankly, the upcoming times won’t allow me too much time to blog.  i’m not saying this is the end of floating over babylon.  BY NO MEANS is this the end.  i just can’t commit to posting every few days anymore, but at the same time, i do promise that i will do as much as i can.  i’ll jump the gun now, and tell you what the purpose of the post is.  ONE: recent happenings, TWO: TSA bullshit policy, THREE: reflections, FOUR: lookbook.

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tonight was perfect.  i woke up and it was misty and mild, walked all the way to school and listened to noah and the whale and typhoon (good AM combo), finished the day, ran home, slept for five hours, ate some hummus, TRAVELED TO FIGA, and had a wonderful last meal with A.  we ran into some wonderful english teachers and spent a while engaged in a fulfilling conversation with them, and also chatted a great deal with an older couple who sat next to us.  we indulged in sev crusted scallops, wild boar rendang, tandoori chicken, meatloaf, a trio of creme brulees (lemongrass, orange cardamom, and chocolate espresso).  this past weekend i spent some much needed time with my little brother, ate a lot of cherry garcia, went roller skating, worked and decorated and produced/composed my first ever window display (GO LOOK AT IT), and had a movie marathon.  tomorrow: yoga, cranberry currant tarte, train to boston, family dinner, etc. etc. did i mention that i’m so incredibly happy?

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screw the TSA.  i’m not one who travels too far during the holiday season ( thank god for new england ), but for the past three nights ABC news with diane sawyer has focused on the measures the TSA is taking this holiday season.  of course it’s wise to take precaution, especially since the threat of terror has been increased as of late, but the extent they’re taking it is RIDICULOUS.  this won’t be the most eloquent opinion i’ve ever put forth, but i need to get it out, so here goes nothing.  pat downs have existed for a very long time in the world, and ever since they were first used, nobody has enjoyed them.  but the new version of pat downs being used by the TSA are appalling.  they encroach on groping, and when a TSA employee is groping an 8 year old child, you know something is wrong.  they are invasive, and time consuming.  in addition, a TSA employee should be able to use their instinct and trust their intuition about a person.  surely it’s not common for a 65 year old woman is not a terrorist (then again, it is possible, but how many 65 year old women have you heard about that are terrorists? i can say i’ve never heard of a single one).  the lack of common sense in regards to the TSA’s new policies is what bothers me.  it’s both time consuming and overly cautious.  of course the safety of all should be put above convenience for a single person- but in other news, when has utilitarianism ever been important to the USA before now? let’s just use common sense and not strip an 8 year old girl down in the middle of an airport because her barrette set off the metal detector.  plus, who wants to be groped at any age? pas moi.

so as i mentioned, i am incredibly happy.  ridiculously happy that my head hurts, and that i can’t even figure out how i’ve gotten to this point in my life.  everything is right, everything makes sense.  i’m appreciating what i have, not thinking about what i don’t have.  my family is healthy, my friends are sane, and i’m being treated like i should have been a long time ago.  of course the only thing wrong is that i’ve been sleep deprived for the past three weeks or so.  but that’s curable.  sort of.  there are always hills and valleys in life, and currently, i’m walking up one of those really high hills that is promising and rewarding.  i’m flourishing in this new environment, and i’m thankful for all i have, for all i know, and for all to come.  connections are undeniable, emotions are not hindered, rather they are facilitated.  i’ve been able to cook, i’ve been able to clear my head.  i’ve just entered this new stage in life, and i’m so glad that it’s come now, rather than sooner or later.

i’ll leave you with this video- because it’s so good and you should watch it.  OH YEAH.  i’m reviving my lookbook, so get your hype on.  i’m sorry about the bad news in regards to a small amount of posting, but hopefully soon i’ll get my act together and update frequently.  i’ll make it clear when that will happen- perhaps 2011? a hiatus is sort of needed to be frank.  HAPPY THANKSGIVING & HOLIDAYS.

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empire state

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i can’t complain with anything that’s happened lately- besides the possible and probable election of LePage as our new govenor.  at any rate, everything else has been so fantastic.  i’ve been eating lots of veggies and drinking lots of pumpkin protein.  i started wuthering heights- so far, so good.  i’ve worked more than usual, which translates to more cash than usual.  i’ve spent time with some pretty good friends in the past 7 days which has made me happier than usual, and not to mention, i’m seeing them again very soon. lots of turkey bacon and tomatoes and spinach. scary movies, stupid tv, quality music, etc etc.

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as each day passes, i’m more content than the day prior.  i wish i could explain this in a different way, but there are a few reasons why i cannot.  i desperately want to relay my current joys to someone, though i’m a tad bit nervous to do so.  perhaps after all this time, luck will help me out, and things will work out for the best. crush crush crush.  no more leaves to crunch crunch crunch. 

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novembre

i think receiving my monthly horoscope is by far the highlight of every month- that is, unless its bound to be a wretched month, and then i hate my horoscope.  but i like it now, at least for november.

“Being part of a community or circle of friends and building your social network is important to you at this time. This is a rather happy, goal-oriented cycle. A lively agenda is promised, you’re attracting quite a bit of interest, and your energy for making contact with others is high. A stronger sense of community is with you during this cycle.”

i’ve been getting the feeling that i’ll try and be more social.  i’m tired of going to be early and staying in on weekends.  i’m also tired of the same old faces- and voices.  i do not plan on answering my phone for quite sometime, if its foreseen that nothing will come of the conversation.  dinner party menu to create, invites to send, and an overdue trip to L’Hereux is in order.  this weekend, i was made very happy.  that headache from saturday is still apparent on monday at 4pm.  whatta shame.  that november nip has gotten the best of me.  photos to come.

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peaceful productivity

its the sudden turn of events that throws everyone off.  soon, november will grace us, and with her comes dark nights, dark mornings, dark days, and cold winds.  family dinners, friend dinners, signs of snow, frosted roads.  turkeys and ducks and stuffing and cranberries.  the desire of camraderie, prolonged hot showers, early to sleep, late to rise.  hearty meals, football sundays.  i’ve had a marvelous two days, full of afternoon naps and salary raises.  tomorrow promises a champagne cake and a viewing of the tempest and chocolat.  friday brings double yoga sessions, no class, and work.  for the first time in a while today, i giggled.  i laugh a lot anyway, that’s not rare.  but someone made me giggle.  the sort where you blush afterward, mumble some sort of awkward nothing and leave before they realize what just happened.  he made me giggle.  i’m going to try and not do that anymore, or else it’d be too obvious? i can’t wait to crunch the leaves on sunday evening, and to see rocky horror on saturday.  graveyard cupcakes for my little cousins, a maximum of three hours homework over the course of three days.  entirely do-able. catching up on all the sleep i’ve lost.  cleaning and hopefully having fun? though i know not with who yet.  sunday… scary movies? possibly guests? though they haven’t been picked.  i need coffee.  i slept for 4 hours this afternoon.  i want to sleep now.  but i’m so comfortable listening to records, editing photos, and wondering why he made me giggle.  now i just feel awkward.  as awkward as i felt when i showed up on campus soaking wet, and after i almost got hit by two cars.  oh me, oh my.  isn’t this fantastic?

In spring of youth it was my lot
       To haunt of the wide world a spot
       The which I could not love the less-
       So lovely was the loneliness
       Of a wild lake, with black rock bound,
       And the tall pines that towered around.

       But when the Night had thrown her pall
       Upon that spot, as upon all,
       And the mystic wind went by
       Murmuring in melody-
       Then- ah then I would awake
       To the terror of the lone lake.

thank edgar allen poe for his brilliance and perfection at bringing that forboding autumn ambiance to the table.

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i need to try and not be so awkward.  i think my approach is a bit backwards in the sense that when he waves, i stare.  i’ve never been good at this but now’s the time where i suppose i can improve.  i’d typically turn to cake or poetry in lieu of proper conversation, but i realize that proper conversation is something incredibly important.  maybe some luck will come my way.

 

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TROUBLE COMES KNOCKING

tomorrow! so excited.  can’t wait to be in good company and hear some of my favorite tunes at my favorite venue.  it’s been a while since i’ve done anything of the sort, so why not make an appearance in town when i have the opportunity? a was delayed, and she got to eat some of my raspberry plum pear pie, watch 8 mile with me, and eat this:

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Mr. Darcy

i have found my newest and only muse at this time.  unfortunately, jaime oliver is married with kids, but i still find him to be so terribly cute! the way he cooks outside on an open fire, how he cans and pickles and makes his own ketchup- oh he’s just so fantastic.  maybe someday, when i’m pursuing my passion, i’ll meet someone with similarities to jaime, and then, if fate permits it, we’d get along famously.

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i’m planning on doing a lot of cooking this week, so look out Vin et Grub, recipes galore tba asap.  i survived standardized testing today, actually, i’m quite confident.  i made some progress on b108, and i cleaned the kitchen and reorganized all the cabinets.  i also took a trip to the market, and picked up some food for the upcoming week.  i’m rarely excited enough to talk about what i will be cooking- but i think i’m elated tonight, so i may as well share.  tomorrow evening’s menu: seared mahi mahi wrapped in a thin layer of russet potato with brown butter and sage sauce.  monday evening: roasted stuffed tomatoes, with artichokes, chevre, and panko, served with a watercress and black cherry salad.  tuesday evening: roasted chicken, basted in champagne vinegar and aged balsamic, with tarragon, three-variety mashed potatoes, stuffing, and brownies.  wednesday evening: fagiolini in umido, and fried chicken.  thursday evening: tandoori tofu, and basmati rice.  friday evening: a trip to local, or perhaps figa/new miyake.  so excited for my week in food.  in addition, it’s obvious that i’ll be swamped in homework, and also, i’ll be baking a black plum raspberry pear pie tomorrow night.  it’ll be more like a free form tartette, but it should be wonderful nonetheless.  i’m headed to sonny’s tonight to visit with some folks, and party just a little bit.  tomorrow: so much homework, so much baking, coffee, and lots of sleep, plus a brunch date.  VERY EXCITED FOR MONDAY NIGHT @ SPACE.  DARKDARKDARK= BRIGHTBRIGHTBRIGHT.

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indian summer spent in the mountains

this past weekend i traveled to northern new hampshire and eastern vermont all to celebrate the indian summer with my dearest A and go antiquing.  i took a roll of film, which i will be sending out soon, but for the meantime, i thought i might as well add the photos i took with my canon. 

I left school without going to yoga so I could catch a 3:30 bus to Boston and then a 6:15 bus to Littleton, NH.  I fancied myself a seat next to a rather dashing young student at Bowdoin, and for a good two hours, engaged in an enlightening conversation about deviled eggs and marriage.  After we parted, I ran to purchase my ticket to the North Country and made the bus with five minutes to spare.  It took a good hour and a half to get out of Boston, seeing as rush hour in the city is wretched on any Friday during the fall.  Perhaps three hours after leaving the city, I found myself waking up just as the bus pulled into the gas station in Littleton, where A was waiting.  I was desperate to see how beautiful the North Country is, but seeing as it was close to 10pm, I couldn’t enjoy the scenery.  Instead I found myself sitting at a wonderful little cafe called Social with A until the early hours of Saturday eating burgers and sharing our recent lives with one another.  Soon after I retired to a warm bed and slept until my heart’s content.

A brought me to five different antique shops over the weekend, but the ones in Bethelehem were fantastic.  I was given a bunch of old stills from this wonderful man named Roland, and I spent sometime at the Bethelehem Farmer’s MKT.  A little later on, A & I got coffee at Maia Papaya, and then we drove out to Vermont for an Indian Summer Party.  The drive over was beautiful.  All the trees were full of fantastic aged leaves, colored with gold, crimson, and burnt sienna.  The house was only a mere 20 miles away from our B&B but it took us a good hour to get to the cabin.  When we got there, we spent a while stacking our hostess’ wood, and sitting by the woodstove, looking out the huge bay windows, which held the most spectacular view of the green mountains. 

 

Sunday brought an excursion to Littleton, which consisted of the Littleton Farmer’s market where A & I got some bread from an organic farmer from Vermont, which was decked out in brown sugar and pecans, and then a long afternoon spent at Just L. antiques and the Littleton Bookshop.  We also ventured inside of Chutters, which is home to the longest candy counter in the world, where I snagged some old favorites and new favorites as well! Then we finally made our way to the Mountain View- a hotel which I now despise after a terrible experience, and indulged in some spicy wings on the porch which was facing Mt. Washington.  We also took sometime to read in the Eisenhower Library and play chess on a human size board.  We ended our night watching Mad Men and eating Chicken Pot Pie in bed.  Did I mention that this hotel is haunted? Well, it is.

I will scan my film from the trip once I get it back, but with that being said, I’m sure I’ll have better photos from this upcoming weekend posted before those!! Tonight consists of take out from Veranda, Fantastic Mr. Fox, and The September Issue.  Who knows what tomorrow brings.

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updatez & kittehz & promises

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on this rainy october day (worst combination in my opinion) i find myself pulling an all-nighter to remain on track at school and bake cookies for tomorrow.  in the past two days i’ve baked four dozen cookies and i’m getting better at baking.  i used to bake a lot, and i still do, but i have to admit its been quite sometime since i’ve baked cookies.  cakes and tarts and pies seem to be my forte.  but so it goes, these cookies are for a cause, a good one that is.

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sublime days passing by within a blink of an eye.  keeling over on the walk home possibility, reminisce, parcels delivered and signed for, unexpected and welcomed invitations, aspirations and lots of beirut.  jane austen shall never be better than northanger abbey, writing in varsity, and ink stained digits.  memories, or would you say lacksidaciscal thoughts and spinning, arms, legs, strands of hair akimbo.  play in the works, romance on the horizon, nourished properly come the 5th day.  holidays, reunions, anxiety and depression.

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painful, wincing at the sight of them.  without gold, without tears, without what you think i need.  one too many americanos, steaming, piping hot, it’s gases making its way through the stiff autumn air.  crisp skies, big breaths, crunch crunch crunching leaves, root vegetables, increase in figs+kale.  overall bliss.

forgoing the immediate comfort of my down blanket and bed, all to be discomforted by the truths and travisties of my mind.  sleep deprivation- something i haven’t been in a while.  lots and lots of tea, missing rain slicker and umbrella soaked by nature, indulgence in warm hot showers. 

dropping roll of film from vermont/new hampshire off some point tomorrow.  shooting more saturday.  adventure photos from the past weekend are being uploaded- slowly, patiently, ever so leisurely.  tension between everyone and anyone, have i upset the one person i ought to depend on most? unsure.  losing a grip of said relationship, so nature takes its course, things end, things decay.  bring me, let me spend the day in your bed, in your world, exchanging things that have never been exchanged before.

irrationality taking over.  counting down the days.  let that nip bite your ankles.

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the way you move ain’t fair you know

i’m starting this off with a brief apology regarding the month of september and my lack of posts.  i’ve been quite busy, and unable to do proper posts, which i’m sure is an excuse that’s getting old.  but i feel like i needn’t say much more so i can just get down to business.

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i’m here in bethlehem, new hampshire, and for the past few days i’ve been moving about from here to franconia to vermont.  it’s been quite the weekend, because i’ve been visiting A! the busride up was pretty brutal, 5+ hours sitting uncomfortably, though i was able to finish all of the most recent edition of gastronomica, and all my homework.  we’ve been antiquing, and eating, and going to hippie parties.  today we’re planning on going to the farmer’s mkt in littleton, going for pancakes at polly’s, and then to a few more antique stores.  i’m rather content with this current situation.  the upcoming week is going to be rather rigorous for i’m missing two and a half days, so as far as catching up with work, who knows how it will possibly be achieveable?

i can’t wait to see my kittehs, and to bake cookies with lyllie on tuesday.  earl grey all the way.  happy autumn, and happy year anniversary to enfinoui!

xoxo,

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