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arabian nights

sorry for my prolonged absence.  i know that i updated once when i was in MTL, but it’s been a while since I’ve done a typical post.  and i’m afraid i won’t be doing one tonight, because it’s 12:30am, and I need to sleep a bit before my vacation officially ends at 6.5 hours from now.

it seems as though every year school vacations become less of a vacation and more work/business than anything else.  this vacation proved to be just that- for there wasn’t a single day where I actually was able to sleep past 8am, and honestly, that was the one thing I could have used.  my visit to montreal was really great- I enjoyed my time with Lily and Isabel, and ate some very delicious food, which is slowly, but surely appearing over at vin et grub.  besides that i just had a bunch of errands to do, and then my weekend consisted of basically work and coffee and revising an essay which didn’t take me too long to do.

this upcoming week however marks the start of restaurant week- which i’m excited about just because it gives me an excuse to go out to dinner as frequently as I want to places I typically don’t visit.  I’ll be making my maiden voyage to Bresca Saturday evening after work with the lovely A, and then traveling to District on Sunday with sammy blue eyes.  tuesday i have a brunch meeting, and a SATs hardcore study session.  I also need to make room to clean, because my bedroom is trashed, and it needs to be reorganized.  I’ll be frank and tell you I’m not ready to go back to school.  this week is going to pass by very slowly, and if I could just have one more day off, I’d be the happiest camper in the world.  too bad that’s not going to happen.

i’ll leave you with some music i’ve been jamming out to recently, and i promise that i’ll begin regular posts soon!

-enfin

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yogi breaths

that’s all i’ve been doing all day.  this has been possibly the worst weekend i’ve experienced in a while.  i’ll gladly take a hangover during work any day over what’s happened in the past two days.

i hate how people don’t understand what effect their words have on me.  they don’t even know it, in fact, it will never ever occur to them that the smallest things that they perceive to be entirely justified absolutely kill me inside.

work has been absolutely swamped this weekend, and today there really wasn’t a moment to breathe, which really did a number on me.  especially since i spent a good deal of time in the hospital yesterday, with my grandmother which was emotionally taxing.  there have been numerous moments where i just want to break down and cry, and there have been the same amount of moments where i’ve wanted to shriek until my voice left me forever.  there’s just so much going on, and the people who should be there, aren’t, and it all feels like a repeat of june 2009.

i leave bright and early for montreal tomorrow.  i’m pretty excited to be frank, but i know that i’m bringing over so much stress and anxiety, which i obviously wish i could leave behind in the US.

in regards to the social sector of my life, i feel like there have been so many hills and valleys in the past few weeks, and i’m just so tired of it all.  i’m tired of people saying one thing, and then doing other things that just completely negate their words.  i’m tired of being disappointed and easily irritated.  and also, some people just need to chill the fuck out, and learn to account for their words and actions in a responsible manner.

at this moment, the only things i’m looking forward to are work next weekend, dinner at Hugo’s on the 8th, and going back to school.  i don’t really have any desire to spend time with people over break unless they’re family members.  everyone else, i’ve just realized i’m very short with and will more than likely snap at.

a nice cup of iced vietnamese coffee would do me a world of wonder right now.  and perhaps when i wake up at 5am, i’ll want to be social again.  maybe it’s just the fact that i’m absolutely exhausted that i feel this way right now.  it could also be that i’m very sad and very lonely.  but whatever the reason, i hope it gets resolved sooner rather than later.

then again, i’ve been known to dwell in my sorrow- but, i’ll try not to do that now.

enfin

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i’m a new soul

this winter is getting more difficult to survive for reasons out of my control.  first and foremost, i absolutely despise the cold temperatures, and they always just effect me negatively because i want to find a little corner and huddle there with about a billion blankets on top of me.  the second reason has to do with the cold temperatures- once february hits, it seems like the snow is gone, and instead we’re plagued with ice.  i can’t tell you how much i hate ice.  for one, it’s so dangerous, and also it’s just not user friendly.  i always get this anxious pit in my stomach when i’m walking on ice, and i just don’t like it.  but i don’t want to bore you with why i’m having a difficult time this winter, instead i’d rather tell  you what i’m doing to busy myself in this lonely period of the year.

break starts friday at 2pm, thankfully.  it’s not so much that i need it like i need christmas break, but instead, it’s just some time to actually go do stuff that i need to do, and that i’m genuinely excited about.  first and foremost, there’s a food/fashion blogger happy hour at my place of work, and i’m very excited to meet with a few folks- kate from the blueberry files, and so on, and immediately after that, i think i’m going to spend some quality time with samuel, because i won’t see him for a good amount of time from saturday onward.  then the weekend boasts a dinner with marlowe at the noodle bar, working both brunches, and driving down to bos late sunday so i can wake up early to leave the country.

don’t worry, i seriously haven’t been keeping anything too big from you guys- it’s not like i’m leaving for turkey or something crazy like that.  just a friendly visit to our northern neighbor- canada.  no, it’s not going to be a drinking fest, but rather a visit at two possible schools i’m looking at, and a reunion with a pretty cool friend.   i’ll be in montreal for 3 days, then i’ll stay another night in boston to see two of my aunts for dinner, and also to crash so i don’t have to get home ridiculously late wednesday night.  the rest of the week is really unclear, because i’m left with four days to do more than i think is possible to squeeze into 96 hours.  sugarloaf, bela dear, have a jersey shore party, spend some quality time with A & samuel, work two+ shifts, oh, and sleep? maybe it’s all possible, but then again, i could just have a case of being unrealistic.

in other news, restaurant week is rapidly approaching- that’s right, it’s my favorite time of year again.  i have four reservations thus far, and the list can only keep growing if you look at it from my view.  first is my maiden voyage to bresca (can’t say that i’ve ever been more excited about a restaurant visit), next comes a trip to district with mere, and then a trip to vignola with nellie, and finally the eve of my SATs boasts a wonderful meal at bar lola with mr. I.  i think i’ll also be visiting hugo’s on a tuesday for their half of blind tasting menu, and then of course one night i’ll go somewhere with sam, maybe local or sonny’s. so i guess you can say that i’m consciously trying to make things look on the bright side, and it’s working for the most part.  primarily what kills me is the cold wind when i walk outside.  that makes me forget what i have to look forward to and instead makes me spiteful.  don’t worry, i’m trying to work on it though.

-enfin

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here’s to the rebel

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back from canada. glad? no. sad? yes. missed les chats? oui, oui. quebec is quite spectacular. although i did end up getting sick friday… vomitting in public is not the sort of thing you WANT to do when first leaving the country, besides that all went well. i got inked, (yay) and i said oy vey a lot, even though that’s not exactly a canadian thing. i also danced at a sugar shack with a bunch of teenpunks that i could care less about. i was without any form of sanity whilst in canada, and it was somewhat refreshing to be quite honest. let me also say, i will never eat another PB&J ever again. i took two rolls of film, and i’m sending them out tomorrow because i’m too lazy to develop them with stancowicz. in addition to that, i believe i have a nice day planned for tuesday. classes, etc, and then tennis practice. contemplating whether or not to actually babysit, and then i have to run to norms, pick up a book, and pack for the dirty south where i will be stationed for five days, and then onward to cambridge for a few more days. so relieved to be getting out of this hell hole. i know that’s kind of ridiculous to say on my part, because i’m trying to be nonchalant and carefree and all, but some people… are just so immature and bothersome, it’s hard to be nonchalant and carefree.

i miss blogging and writing to tell you the truth. i miss my fiction pieces. during the end of the school year i get caught up with trips, and projects, and research papers and finals and tennis and work and increasing social life, so its hard to balance everything. plus as far as writing any fiction pieces, i’ve been lacking inspiration, and i was also put off a bit due to a case of total writer’s block that i didn’t see coming. anyway, i’m still working on producing a solid story for everyone, and i hope to by the end of next week. tis quite the deadline, but it gives me some leeway. ALSO in store is a mixed tape. that oughta be out by the end of next week too. let’s hope for a smooth transition (which i always seem to experience) and a good vacation.

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