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Fall Mix-Tape

Autumn’s here… so that means a new seasonal mix tape for everyone to revel in/to…. can you revel to something? If you can’t you should be able to!

Neon Indian- Polish Girl

Florence and the Machine- My Boy Builds Coffins

M83- Up!

Brother Ali- Here

M83- We Own the Sky

Pretty Lights- Finally Moving James Brown Remix

Ugly Casanova- Cat Faces

Kid Cudi- The Prayer

M83- Midnight City

Nappy Roots- Good Day

UUVVWWZ- Green Starred Sleeve

Danger Doom- The Mask

Florence and the Machine- Rabbit Heart (Raise it Up)

Chiddy Bang- Too Much Soul

Tommy Sparks- She’s Got Me Dancing

Phantogram- As Far As I Can See

Broken Bells- October

Timber Timbre- Bad Ritual

Beach House- Walk in the Park

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yogi breaths

that’s all i’ve been doing all day.  this has been possibly the worst weekend i’ve experienced in a while.  i’ll gladly take a hangover during work any day over what’s happened in the past two days.

i hate how people don’t understand what effect their words have on me.  they don’t even know it, in fact, it will never ever occur to them that the smallest things that they perceive to be entirely justified absolutely kill me inside.

work has been absolutely swamped this weekend, and today there really wasn’t a moment to breathe, which really did a number on me.  especially since i spent a good deal of time in the hospital yesterday, with my grandmother which was emotionally taxing.  there have been numerous moments where i just want to break down and cry, and there have been the same amount of moments where i’ve wanted to shriek until my voice left me forever.  there’s just so much going on, and the people who should be there, aren’t, and it all feels like a repeat of june 2009.

i leave bright and early for montreal tomorrow.  i’m pretty excited to be frank, but i know that i’m bringing over so much stress and anxiety, which i obviously wish i could leave behind in the US.

in regards to the social sector of my life, i feel like there have been so many hills and valleys in the past few weeks, and i’m just so tired of it all.  i’m tired of people saying one thing, and then doing other things that just completely negate their words.  i’m tired of being disappointed and easily irritated.  and also, some people just need to chill the fuck out, and learn to account for their words and actions in a responsible manner.

at this moment, the only things i’m looking forward to are work next weekend, dinner at Hugo’s on the 8th, and going back to school.  i don’t really have any desire to spend time with people over break unless they’re family members.  everyone else, i’ve just realized i’m very short with and will more than likely snap at.

a nice cup of iced vietnamese coffee would do me a world of wonder right now.  and perhaps when i wake up at 5am, i’ll want to be social again.  maybe it’s just the fact that i’m absolutely exhausted that i feel this way right now.  it could also be that i’m very sad and very lonely.  but whatever the reason, i hope it gets resolved sooner rather than later.

then again, i’ve been known to dwell in my sorrow- but, i’ll try not to do that now.


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good luck charm

I guess I should start by being entirely honest.  Yesterday was certainly not the prettiest one I’ve ever come across.  First and foremost I woke up on my floor at 6 in the morning, and from that point until 6pm I was in that wretched margin of sensations that is only felt when one does something stupid the night before.  I went to work, it was absolutely dead, but thankfully the people I dealt with were incredibly pleasant, and I didn’t have to converse with anyone too difficult. By the time I left the restaurant, I was dehydrated, malnourished, and sleep deprived.  I walked home rather slowly, and I spent a really long time cleaning my room, because it was absolutely disgusting.  I tried to read but I fell asleep, and when I woke up it was snowing heavily outside, and I got really sad.  Then Sammy Blue Eyes called and we talked for a little bit, but I asked him to not talk while he was driving- which may have aggravated him- I’m not sure- and then I fell back asleep by accident.

By the time I woke up, I was pretty groggy but my headache was gone, and thoughts were being processed relatively easily. There was nothing on television, and I was under strict orders not to leave the house.  I kept looking at the clock and feeling like it was time to go to bed, but I didn’t fall asleep until 11 ish.  Now I’m awake, I need to get ready for work, and then do a bit of homework (actually, a bit more than a bit) and then I guess I’m going to a superbowl party.  I guess I’m more American than I make it seem.  Go Steelers.  That’s about all I have to leave you with.  Hopefully I’ll be productive today, get some work done, make some money, etc, etc.

have a fantastic sunday.