on this rainy october day (worst combination in my opinion) i find myself pulling an all-nighter to remain on track at school and bake cookies for tomorrow. in the past two days i’ve baked four dozen cookies and i’m getting better at baking. i used to bake a lot, and i still do, but i have to admit its been quite sometime since i’ve baked cookies. cakes and tarts and pies seem to be my forte. but so it goes, these cookies are for a cause, a good one that is.
sublime days passing by within a blink of an eye. keeling over on the walk home possibility, reminisce, parcels delivered and signed for, unexpected and welcomed invitations, aspirations and lots of beirut. jane austen shall never be better than northanger abbey, writing in varsity, and ink stained digits. memories, or would you say lacksidaciscal thoughts and spinning, arms, legs, strands of hair akimbo. play in the works, romance on the horizon, nourished properly come the 5th day. holidays, reunions, anxiety and depression.
painful, wincing at the sight of them. without gold, without tears, without what you think i need. one too many americanos, steaming, piping hot, it’s gases making its way through the stiff autumn air. crisp skies, big breaths, crunch crunch crunching leaves, root vegetables, increase in figs+kale. overall bliss.
forgoing the immediate comfort of my down blanket and bed, all to be discomforted by the truths and travisties of my mind. sleep deprivation- something i haven’t been in a while. lots and lots of tea, missing rain slicker and umbrella soaked by nature, indulgence in warm hot showers.
dropping roll of film from vermont/new hampshire off some point tomorrow. shooting more saturday. adventure photos from the past weekend are being uploaded- slowly, patiently, ever so leisurely. tension between everyone and anyone, have i upset the one person i ought to depend on most? unsure. losing a grip of said relationship, so nature takes its course, things end, things decay. bring me, let me spend the day in your bed, in your world, exchanging things that have never been exchanged before.
irrationality taking over. counting down the days. let that nip bite your ankles.