my oasis phase has come and gone, but i did enjoy finding this photo. once again the rain is plaguing me. no longer is it soft rain, i could hear the thud of the tiny droplets against the roof a l’ecole. i waited for 45 minutes after classes got out to read a speech, the person waited for however, never showed up, and typically, that sort of action would have tainted my mood for the remainder of the day. i dealt with it differently though- seeing as its their loss, not mine. i also didn’t take it personally. i’ve been writing more and more of my story- although, i’m not sure what the ending is going to be, nor am i sure about how certain events will play out. coffee shops are no longer my favorite places- now i enjoy being alone, in my room, with my cats, or without, doesn’t make much of a difference. its just these people…these people are nuisances.
after getting out of a long shower (third one today) i was confronted with an obnoxious bass sound coming from my kitchen. the rain has bothered me all day and the wind has turned into my biggest enemy. but as i left my bathroom, i see my dearest mom, in the kitchen, doing sun salutations to candy shop by 50 Cent. don’t quite know how to interpret this situation, which is why- once again, i’m in my room, carefully pondering my upcoming activity for the next four or so hours. maybe a nap is in order?
that was the best nap i’ve ever had.
i ate at norms- like i typically do on thursday evenings. because the weather was/is horrendus i assumed the bar would be empty- not the case though. i often think that perhaps i eat there too much, but what can i say? its out of habit, and there’s no changin’ tradition. the wind and terrential rain is very ominous. i’m not particularly enjoying it- in fact, all day i felt like i was walking though a hurricane. ive been thinking about staying in a single room with a quilt, some beverage, a few records, and good company. but, being unable to do so, i’ve had to change location a few times in the past 24 hours or so. typical thursday thus far. not much gained, not much lost- but overall…its been typical. good news is that tomorrow….besides being friday
anxiety. bad bad weather. demonic type gusts hitting up against my window!